As far back from what I can remember from my childhood onwards
I have always carried this feeling of boredom
a protracted sense of greyness, no matter what I do
this feeling of inadquacy of my current path never went away,
I assumed that there was this placen a place of contentmnet
wherein i would always be in a state of elation or contentment
but nay, even when I reached the peak of somethign that I wanted to d
I looked around me I see the same fog, the same dark eyes.
Eventually on around august 20th or so I started having nightmare, or not nightmares per se
but a very real feeling of death a feeling of floating inside my ownh body,
not a good feeling, this alkong with the constant boredom, made me finally accept that
this is what real life is , its is boring meandering,
this is what sapience is. a constant state of 'mehness'
I realize that the paragraphs i wrote before this heading are very bleak
but no lol i don't plan on killing myself, i like the hype moments and aura of life
I will build this site day by day, into something that more aligns with my drop in the karmic ocean
peace and love to all in this big world.
I like Novels, Video game's, reading political history, philosophy
if you were to ask me why I like doing all the stuff that I do,
I wouldnt be able to give you a clear answer,
I suppose my house was always strewn with books like this
my father, like every other reader would always buy books but never read ny of them
and as such i too follow this sacred tradition of the bibliophile
my current obsessions